I cant believe its already December. I have mixed emotions for this month. I'm very excited to be spending Christmas with my side of the family in Houston! I can't even remember the last time I spent Christmas with my parents and brother! I feel like this will be one of the first Christmas' Caden will understand and I'm so blessed we get to be with family!
At the same time my heart aches because Jeremy is leaving soon and won't be here for Christmas with us. Him being gone is not something new. And we were able to have an early Christmas with him already. And contrary to what I thought at the beginning, deployments do not get easier each time! Especially with Caden. As time goes on, our love for eachother grows even stronger. So lately I have been finding myself fighting back tears that come out of nowhere!
This is no pity party. This is just me being honest. I know we will be ok and that God will take care of us while we are apart. And that I'm sure I'll spoil the heck out of Caden on the days that we really miss daddy :) I am a strong military spouse and can take care of everything while my husband works very hard to protect our family and country. You will never hear me complain, or be angry! But I do sometimes get sad and thats healthy :) And good to be able to "talk" about it!
So thanks for listening (reading) what's on my heart today. :) I hope yall are enjoying every minute of this Holiday season! Dont get wrapped up in gifts and activities. Just be with your family and make some spectacular memories!
Love ya'll
i know it is so hard for him to be gone. im so glad yall have had some weekends together! we miss him dearly too...but i just KNOW that God has awesome plans for you AND for Jeremy while hes gone. love you girl.
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