But lately it has started to feel like more of a distraction, then fun. The other night I was actually reading my daily passage from my bible and thought "wow, that was such a good read. Why don't I make time for this everyday like I should?" And then I started to reflect on all the things that I know I have time for but am just not doing. It was pretty long. I am not keeping up with the regular daily chores. I am constantly late everywhere I go. I have about 4 books that I started but are unfinished. Most importantly I'm not making time everyday for the Lord.
So I made a list of what I want to accomplish, what's most important to me, and then a list of what I was actually filling my days with. I remembered my Abiding mom chart as well. And while I'm not trying to find my self worth in my accomplishments, I'm trying to do abide in HIM.
“I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing." John 15:5
I found that Romans 12:2 perefectly describes how I have been feeling lately:
"And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect.”
For me, right now, facebook is what is holding me back from being the woman I know God wants me to be. Sometimes it's TV. Sometimes its too many projects or activities. Not long ago, it was working out! I'm embarrassed to admit that even after I wrote that post i've still been struggling to make time for Him.
So the past few days I have been staying away from fb. And guess what? I have MORE TIME! It's like this cloud has been lifted out of my mind. Those constant few minutes every time I logged on added up BIG TIME. And some close friends would be pleased to know I've actually been everywhere on time! :) Amazing what spending time with the Lord does for you huh?
But It's a constant battle. Not allowing myself to be caught up in the world. Is there anything keeping you from who God is calling you to be? What's your time waster? Please let me know so we can hold eachother accountable!
{And if you're reading this from facebook, no I didnt log on to post this, I used the facebook share button at the bottom of this post! ;) So please comment on my blog instead of on facebook because I wont see it right now! }
Love yall!
Jessi! You are always an encouragement! Thanks for sharing and your honesty! We each have things in our own lives that rob us of what the Lord really desires of us and that is to be wholly committed unto Him. Miss you!! Love, Alysa
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