I CAN DO IT

So every week I tell myself ok, this week I can do it.  This week I can get to work exactly by 8, and work out all 5 days and keep the house clean, and baby happy all at the same time......And every week I fall short in every way except for keeping the baby happy.  That part I can do! 

I know everyone says don't worry the weight will come off eventually...it took 9 months to gain it, it will take 9 months to lose it but who wants to walk around twice the size they used to be while you're taking all these pictures of your new baby?! I want to be in the pictures with him and be happy with what I see!!!!!!  I want to be confident when i walk around knowing I look good.  I want to wear my wardrobe!  Right now my awesome collection of work pants is being worn by my beautiful new sister in law MK.  It's absolutely killing me that we can't share clothes right now.  We used to be the same size so while she can raid my closet I can't raid hers :( 

I also am hard on myself because I think of these women out there that have more than one child, are single parents, and work full time AND take classes.  Or are married but still have more than one child, are working full time and taking classes.  If they can do all that why the heck can't I at least make the time to do a few chores every day and go for a run?! UGH!  I make myself sick with all my excuses for not working out.  I keep my house clean but I'm kind of a fanatic and want it always clean so that if people stop by then I don't have to flip out over something not being clean. 

This weekend I surprised myself with how well I've kept the house clean this past week so I'm determined to keep it up and to run after work every day before I go pick up Caden.  Go to the gym at 4 run 2 miles and then go pick up my baby and get home feed him or play with him until it's time for him to eat, then it's daddy play time while I do a chore or two and get the bottles ready for the next day then feed him before bed and put him down for the night. 

so I CAN DO IT!!!  Also I'm having my friend Andrea (who had her baby the same day as Caden and is already down to her pre-prego weight ) text me every day with how many calories she ate that day and if she worked out to keep me motivated to do the same. 

So I feel like I can do this now that I've said it out loud....up until now it was always just a promise to myself.  AND because I've been eating healthy over the past two weeks i've lost about 4 pounds ( see my ticker above ) which is great motivation to keep on truckin!!  Wish me luck!