Remembering Christian 2 years

Two years ago I delivered our 21 week, 1 pound baby boy who had already gone to heaven.  Had the pregnancy gone as planned he would be about 20 months old now.  But the road the Lord had planned for us was a much more heartbreaking, soul seeking, rely on the Lord journey than I could have ever imagined.  We love that little guy so much.  His life and death brought us closer to eachother in marriage, and closer to God.  So for that I am eternally thankful.  Thank you God for our son Christian Able Marx.  For his life, his strong little kicks, for his soul, and for keeping him safe until we are together again in Heaven. 

Today was also the day I miscarried last year at an early 5 weeks.  To say I was nervous about today is an understatement!  The anticipation of going to my appointment and not seeing a heartbeat on this already difficult day.... it would have been crushing.   But God is SO GOOD and has given our little girl the energy to start kicking up a storm to comfort me and know that she is doing just fine in there :)  I also had my weekly ultrasound to check on her blood flow in the brain.  She was being difficult and moving so much and hiding her head down so it was a loooong appointment to confirm that she was still doing just peachy :) 

All in all today has been a great day.  Jeremy was able to spend the weekend with us again so we took him to the airport this morning, came back and had lunch with my parents who watched Caden for me while I went to check on the baby!  I've also had some sweet words of rememberance from friends and family.  Which just makes me so happy that Christian is on their hearts too. 

This was my daily verse today, totally on point as usual:

Psalm 18:1-2 

"I love you, Lord, my strength.

The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;

my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold."